pillow talk.

I highly doubt anyone cares, but this is for me;

So I can remember that I was this sad and know, later in life, things could always be worse.

The past few days have just been an emotional hell on my mind, heart, and soul. I’ve just been empty. Sad. And although I can add up certain things that contribute to this empty feeling, I still can’t figure out what’s wrong.

Yesterday I broke down. My best friend called me, just to see if I was going out with her that night, and I just cried. When I woke up this morning, again I felt….numb. Thats the best way to describe it…numb.

I went out to dinner with my family tonight. Nothing happened. But I actually had to leave the table to go to the bathroom and cry. No real reason. I just had to. I was choking on my own emotion.

There’s a void. I don’t know how to fill it. I’m tired of feeling this way. I’ve never been this empty. Never been this hurt on the inside. I wish I could sleep until next year. Skip this part.